When we are conscious of this feeling we notice the tug of our souls.
This is the call of Spirit, deep within us. Will we answer that call?
If and when we make that choice we begin an Intentional Spiritual Life.
If we thought our life was bumpy before, well, we really better fasten our safety belts now, for this is the ride of a lifetime!
Just how do we do it? There is no way to figure it out in our brain—or use our conscious rational mind. It is only by following the signposts along the way, inscrutable as they may be, that we can find the path. In fact, it is a way that is “no path.”
It requires walking slowly in the darkness when we can’t see, and taking steps that we are guided to take when we can see.
It is the path of contemplation where action must follow. It is both doing and not-doing.
It all boils down to how much we desire to “come home” to our own Spirit — the One Spirit in which we all live, but we can access it only in and through our own souls.
Or are we content to try to manage on our own and feel cut-off and even alienated much of the time?
It requires daily humility. The words I often use are, “God, please show me the way. Show me what to do, and how to speak, for I, of myself, know not.” And then, taking time to stop and listen.
It requires introspection, study of things spiritual, and a meditation practice.
And there are no rules showing us just what to do and how to do it. Joining the “right” group or organization won’t take us there. Reading enough books won’t do it. (I’ve certainly tried both those paths!)
In this life of deep intention, we cannot rely on people, places or things.
In fact an interesting part of this journey is that when we feel the most helpless, the most vulnerable, help is close at hand. For it comes from the unknown. The “unknown God’ that Paul spoke to the Romans about.
Our strength is made perfect in weakness, as Paul told the Corinthians.
It is a mystery. It is profound and it is totally reliable.
Gerald May, M.D says in Addiction and Grace:
“…we can try to be present to the mystery in a gentle, open-handed, and cooperative way. This is the contemplative option—not any system of complicated exercises, but the simple and courageous attempt to bear as much as one can of reality just as it is…..Contemplation is simply trying to face life in a truly undefended and open-eyed way.”
When we let down all our defenses and surrender to the Great Mystery, grace enters through the open door of our heart, and leads us in the path that is right for us.
Thank you, Spirit. Thank you, Grace. For you do what seems impossible, and miracle follows miracle. What we thought was lost comes back as incredible beauty and joy!
It was worth the risk.