“Contentment is the opposite of living from “just as soon as” mentality.”
How many years I lived with “As soon as I get this………………..become this………………..or that happens………………..I’ll be happy.”
This is suffering, dissatisfaction.
I didn’t understand that where I presently lived and breathed was enough, just as it is.
And I struggled with things as they were. They didn’t last when I wanted them to, and lasted far too long when I didn’t want them to.
And I constantly tried to improve myself and others.
Now I realize things are just the way they need to be at this moment. No improvement is necessary.
My belief about what is is what needed adjusting. (And still does.)
So I began the long and arduous task of reeling in the opinions and beliefs that I had projected onto others.
These opinions originate from interpretation of events, circumstances, which have been turned into core beliefs. They are simply programming.
Programs can shift and change.
Contentment requires opening to these places of disconnect, where we blame or try to change someone or something out there, where we have denied our own suffering and projected it onto another.
I began examining these thoughts. By slowing down, I watched these thoughts and inquired of them, “Where did this come from? What does this thought want? What is its motive?”
What I found beneath was a huge amount of programming that I had been taught.
Programs are not the truth. They need to be looked into, investigated.
I notice there are complaining thoughts within me, and thoughts that blame.
I gradually learned not to engage in the content of these thoughts. Let the story behind them go.
Again and again I come back to the breath, quietly letting the thoughts flow past. I notice tension within my body, do my best to breathe it out. Let it go.
I become aware of the emotions in my body and allow them to be felt, letting go the story attached to them.
Does this emotion burn? Does it freeze me up? Does it tighten my gut? Make my heart heavy?
Emotions are energy in motion. I found they passed away as I just let them be.
Emotions can’t hurt us. They simply are—only the stories we have connected to them can hurt—and only for as long as we believe them.
But this moment, this breath, is always here, and it will sustain me for as long as I am in this body.
Through this steady practice I have found many wonderful surprises.
Life is full right now. More than I ever imagined. It is amazing and awesome. I never know what is really happening. It is an adventure!
I often remind myself that in this moment one thing is true—I am living in pure, radiant mind, for that is what always is, every moment.
It’s fresh, it’s new and it’s breathing me! Wow!
Wherever I am right now is a good starting place to investigate each belief that causes me to struggle, feel frustrated, sad or frightened.
As I notice them, I breathe deeply and consciously.
I often pick up my journal and dialogue with whatever seems to upset me. Or I just sit and meditate, allowing myself to quietly let things pass, however long it takes.
“In returning and rest, we are saved.” Isa. 30:15
I find I can sink right into the cave of my heart where there is always nourishment and love. Here I am sustained.
Let it be.
“No matter how I might wish things to be otherwise, things are as they are.”
Let go. Let it happen.
For God love is our Source and lives within us. We can find God, this Kingdom, by going into our heart, the place of many hurts and many joys, where there is continual tender care.
As Charles Fillmore, co-founder of Unity, said, “There is always a church service going on in our heart, but we are not always in attendance.” Let’s attend!
It is my intention to trust this present moment to be what it is, accepting whatever is right now, and knowing the next moment will be a surprise when I really open to it.
Let it happen. It is a dance of becoming!
There is some great music going on. Listen to the rhythm. Move with it! Risk letting go of whatever you believe at this moment, and just experience the breath that so loves to breathe you! Watch the amazing flow of energy.
It’s calling you into the dance. You’re a marvelous partner!
Let it be. Let it happen.
You’ll be guided. Don’t lead. Just follow.