“She must have a very small God to fit into her pocket,” thought I.
I also thought it must be a very convenient notion to have God in one’s pocket.
Pretty much puts us in the driver’s seat, calling on God when we need assistance, otherwise figuring out life for ourselves, chugging on alone and doing whatever we think is best. Only calling on God in distress.
It’s so convenient to think we can manage things and then get help from a Higher Power on our terms.
Without even realizing it I shut God out sometimes, too, forgetting that I’m not in charge. Hidden from my conscious awareness is this belief:
“I’ll let you know when I think I need help, God.”
“I’ll figure this thing out.” “I’ll call you. Don’t call me.”
Then as I go tooling along, one of those cosmic two x fours hits. It hurts.
When the universe wants to each us something it doesn’t check to find out if this is a convenient time for us.
So, this is the way it is sometimes for me. I get interrupted in the midst of this very important life of mine. Just when I’m about to complete something. Right in the middle of a very important task!
How dare it! I have stuff to get done!
Or I get disturbed because things come to a halt and do not go my way.
These are the very times we can find out what our real attitudes toward life, toward God, are. Not what we tell others we believe, but what is below the surface of our consciousness.
We’ll know by our attitudes. How much do we trust? How gracious are we? How much can we accommodate to life? Do we trust it to grow us, and everyone else?
In the science of physics when matter, this physical stuff, is studied, it has been found that it must be disturbed. It has to be poked or prodded in some way so that its nature can be known. Its qualities and attributes cannot be discovered when it is doing nothing. So it gets worked on by some sort of a process.
I think it may be the same with us.
When we are disturbed we can begin to see our underlying beliefs and our deeper motives. They show up in the way we handle what is happening that is not to our liking, rather than in those times we’re just going along merrily with no speed bumps on our path.
This is not convenient for us. It won’t be what our ego wants. And it’s probably something we would very much like to avoid.
So, next time we are interrupted as we are going about our busy life, we could remind ourselves that life always wants us to learn something new. Life is happening for us. Not to us.
We need to see how we are forming and creating the experiences of our lives. How will we handle what comes up next? And next, right after that. There is no let up.
No, it’s not convenient. Just vital.
For instance when you are forgotten by someone important in your life. Or a date is broken, texts and emails are not returned, a doctor’s report shocks and frightens you, or someone criticizes you.
There is a seemingly endless list of unpleasant things that can and do happen to us. And hardly any of them would we call convenient.
However, life always sends us just what we need, but not always what we want.
Life is our mirror. As we meet the happenings in life with as much patience and forbearance possible, our real gifts and strengths can emerge.
We might be asked to do something that is not fun. It is not on our agenda. We struggle whether to say “yes” or “no.”
But by desiring to do that which is for the highest good, and having the courage to act on it, we will develop gifts of humility, wisdom and perseverance.
Perhaps we need to do things that are not convenient, such as connecting with others, meditating daily, deeply practicing putting God’s will before ours. Here is where we will deepen our skills at living a life that will be free of regrets.
Perhaps learning to listen to our dreams, to our bodies, and to others in new ways might bring us into more real pleasure.
What works for me is to remember that no matter how disturbing life seems to be things are unfolding just the way they need to.
And to remember again, and again, and again.
Let me listen and remember that God is always caring for me and helping me. Even when I don’t understand it.
In mindfulness, Rev. Billie