It’s truly lovely to be generous with our money, and time and our possessions. These acts bless everyone.
But what about our spirit?
Can we be generous when we are disappointed? When someone is late for an appointment? When we are in the midst of difficulty? When someone lets us down?
When someone cuts in front of us how do we react? How generous are we at that moment?
I noticed I had a habit of grumbling when things didn’t go as planned, or when I was interrupted. I didn’t always voice it outwardly, but I really began noticing how disagreeable I was inside my head, and in my heart.
That is NOT a spirit of generosity. Nor is it kind.
“If we don’t want our past to be our future we need to change the shape of our mind.”
In order to change any shape, we need to see the present shape, to feel what this shape is like.
This requires suffering. Please note that the root word for suffer means to allow.
Allowing myself to see things as they are, right this minute, requires courage and deep intention.
Through seeing changes are made. Not fixing, just seeing.
Richard Rohr, Franciscan Priest, has said we can only see when our heart comes from love. Otherwise we don’t really see. We are only seeing the past, and reacting.
Just sitting with our feelings, with our intentions, and with the breath as it moves through us. This is an act of generosity!!
It is enough. We are being generous by allowing the universe to do its healing work, and not getting in the way.
We become part of the healing when we don’t abandon ourselves in the midst of our own difficulties. God seeds grow in this container of patiently waiting.
The universe honors our intention of non-abandonment. Each time we don’t run away when things are difficult, and instead look for the patterns within, allowing universal love to do the transforming work, we are being kind.
I want a new future. And I’m willing to wait. Sitting patiently, looking into my habits with a kind heart is what I can do.
Habits get nervous when looked at. They can’t act in the same robotic way. When observed over and over, old structures gradually dissolve.
Doing this work with a kind heart and a generous spirit is powerful.
We can stop, breathe, and choose to open our heart in generosity.
I’m willing to wait in this empty space out of which comes the new.
I’ll trust it.
“Be kinder to yourself than you think you should”
This is a generous world. Nature never scrimps. Nature is boundlessly abundant. Abundance is the very fabric of the universe.
And generosity always returns what we have given, pressed down and running over!
When we cling, things become tighter and more scarce.
It feels so good to let go, and wait. More will be given.