How empty, even desolate, we feel when this happens.
Faith is a process of spiritual growth.
Dr. Ira Progoff, a Jungian psychology, (father of the journal method of dialogue) has pointed out three stages of faith:
1) Original faith
2) Losing original faith
3) Finding our real faith
In the first stage we have the faith that has been given us by those around us. It is the faith of our fathers.
We have faith in something because others have faith in it. We mimic their faith. We try our best to live by it.
Sometimes it works, but when life really challenges us deeply we find it doesn’t hold us up — support us — as we meet the really trying situations in life.
When we are at the bottom of the well, we find we have nothing to nourish or support our needs.
That original faith is gone.
However, metaphysically speaking, when we lose something we eventually discover it was not really ours anyway for nothing is lost in spirit.
The truth is that we cannot lose anything that is really ours by right of consciousness.
Viktor Frankl discovered while in a Nazi prison camp that they could not take away that which was really his: the power of choice. And he chose dignity. They could not take that away.
So, it is in our periods of darkness that we find our true faith!
The yin period is very dark. Something new is always being born in this darkness.
We search and ask, and beg and cry, and mourn and argue with God. Oh, yes, we do argue!
As we allow the agony of having no faith reach it’s peak, and walk on alone, we find we are not alone.
This may come suddenly – of with just a bare glimmer of light.
But something happens.
We find as we endure the unendurable, there is something that supports us.
We feel the lightness, and the joy.
We feel as if we have died and have come back to life.
We have found faith, and this faith cannot be taken from us, for it is born with experience, our expereince.
It is our faith.
This is the faith that passes all understanding.
This is the smile in our hearts when we don’t know what the outcome will be, but we trust it to be the best thing that could happen. And we trust life to continue growing us!
Yes, losing is winning! Letting go brings us greater gifts!