That’s how stubborn the buffalo was. If he had the tiniest bit of wiggle room he ran.
I can relate to that kind of stubborn! If I have as much as one finger of maneuverability left I can refuse to see the truth that would heal.
Instead I try to defend myself and rationalize why I have done something. I make excuses and this keeps me in the haze of self righteous thinking.
Then the pattern repeats until I am willing to stop and look at my thoughts and my actions which have set this in motion.
Yes, how often I have refused to listen to the truth that heals. I sometimes wait until my options are nil and I am at a loss as to what to do.
It’s no fun to have all four legs tied down! We suffer.
Perhaps many of us are like the buffalo trying to wiggle away from that which would bring healing.
As the Gospel According to Thomas says, the truth will set us free, but first it will amaze and dumbfound us.
Or paraphrased, the truth will set us free, but first it will make us darned angry.
How often we refuse to listen to what others tell us —or what the mirror of our world shows — what our karma has brought to us.
Oh, the haze of self righteousness. Things are usually not black and white. There is a lot of gray in life.
None of us can see so clearly that we always do the right thing. We do hurt one another at times.
In our distress we might recoil and say, “I did what? No I didn’t!”
Instead I suggest that we might ask ourselves if our actions just might come from some stubbornness and begin to question our motivations.
When there are disappointments with another, or with life, are we willing to lay all our cards on the table and reveal what we are thinking and feeling?
Can we learn to trust each other — or at least the universe — with our feelings?
A journal is a good beginning place in which we can let our doubts and fears arise, inviting them in and giving them as much space as they need, as Rumi speaks of in his wonderful poem, The Guest House.
Can we dare to be healed by the truth of all that is going on inside us? It’s a process. Life can heal us. If we will let it come forth rather than avoiding it by pushing it away.
As we do this things get sorted out by an invisible process within us.
Our souls are capable of this. We have been born for it. It is our destiny to be healed by the invisible powers of divine love.
This is healing medicine.
Can we stop and listen to each other, and not wiggle away when hurt feelings arise? For they will.
Can we hold the hurt in our heart and just listen?
Can we take turns speaking in this manner?
Yes, we can if we are willing.
The truth will heal, but we must commit to stay connected with each other in our hearts and let love’s medicine have its way.
Through the willingness to go through this process we gradually learn to respond in new ways, rather than stubbornly reacting from old patterns and continue going down dead end streets.
Sometimes we need to just stand there and notice when we get our backs up and stubbornly maintain that our view is right.
Change continually is taking place and we need to change also.
Change — everything dying and passing away —can cause us to suffer. When we have become attached to the way things are we will feel angry and forsaken.
When we hang onto our opinions and our belief systems we hurt.
This is a truth that no one can avoid.
Hanging on to the past hurts but how do we let go? That seems worse.
In our hearts let’s join with others in compassion, for we all suffer.
There is a healing balm.
So let’s notice when we feel boxed in with no wiggle room.
Alone we go asunder; together we all evolve into greater life.
Let’s not stubbornly refuse to deeply listen to ourselves and to each other.
Maybe a great medicine is trying to be given to us.