In this world it takes time for seeds to grow. There’s no getting around it, for this is the nature of things.
“Godseeds” take time to grow also, and I believe each of us is a Godseed.
Attempting to figure things out is hardly ever a solution, and it is clear that forcing a decision doesn’t work either. Waiting on God for answers is essential.
Instead of trying to figure things out I turn to my journal as a place where seed thoughts can grow into new insights.
My intention as I journal is to bring forth joy and harmony, but inside me are also many “uncooked” seeds — old wounds and beliefs that simply aren’t true. All these areas must be touched with love.
Old stories whirl around inside me. Some burn with anger; some with hurt or sadness. They all come hurtling out onto the pages of my journal. I give these difficult thoughts and emotions space.
Touching our pain with gentleness is a form of love. My journal absorbs everything just as soil digests and grows the seeds planted in it.
Relationship seeds also grow in my journal as I dialogue with others. Healing can come forth in any relationship, given time, love and effort. We may not ever change the other, but we change. This is our work.
In my journal, I speak, they speak, and I listen, and then I speak again. And so on. We both have space to be heard. I continue this process until something new and more satisfying arises. This may take days or months, or longer.
Relationships transform through this process.
As the inner, so the outer.
God is often the “other” with whom I speak. Surprising answers come as I wait patiently on God.
It’s hard to give up the notion that we really don’t know how to do the “unknown,” and the unknown is always arising in the present moment.
Clarity has to rise out of the dark, muddy waters, just as the lotus does. We have to wait for the waters to become clear.
Black and white answers (with none of those uncomfortable doubts!) occur only in narrow minds.
Narrowness has no vast unknown (that place in which we all really live). A narrow mind is a mind that is dark with denial and delusion.
The wider our minds, the more inclusive they are, and the lighter. There is room for uncertainty and ambiguity.
When we aren’t comfortable with uncertainty we suffer.
Allowing all the pros and cons of many possibilities — many viewpoints — space in our minds requires patience.
Waiting is necessary for everything to simmer together so that a wholesome decision can be made. Seeds must be “cooked.”
A practice of meditation and praying regularly with a group can nourish us through this time of waiting.
A helpful statement I use over and over is:
Things are just the way they are for me, right now.
This reminds me that whatever state I’m in at the moment is temporary. I don’t have to know the answer now. More will come. Wait patiently.
What is your method for receiving guidance? What kinds of questions do you ask? And do you wait for the answers?
Waiting, trusting, having confidence that no matter what happens it will be all right brings us peace. In calmness God seeds can more easily grow.
God’s voice is always speaking. It is up to us to shift into a place of quiet, patience and trust. It takes time. It requires waiting. There is no substitute.
Yelling at our garden to grow doesn’t help. It grows as it is nourished with what it needs.
We grow in a similar way. We need to stop, calm ourselves, and wait for Spirit. It takes as long as it takes.
Where else can we really find our help?
As Alan Watts said, “From the moment we are born we’re in freefall, and it doesn’t help to hold onto everything else that is falling with us.”
Breathe deeply, relax and wait on God.
I’m waiting with you. Answers will come.