Joy is our True Essence.
Our joy becomes real as we appreciate the awesomeness and beauty around us, and as we skillfully discover the gifts within our difficulties.
Yes, our joy is very often discovered, harvested, through engaging with our difficulties.
Discovering this is a slow process, and it takes continual sifting through the flotsam and jetsam of life. But we become excellent soul archeologists.
Normal, we see through the lenses of our prejudices and judgments. We only see the way we have colored it in our mind, by our stories and interpretations of whatever happened.
The result is a life of dissatisfaction and blame. Something, someone is always wrong. We call this normal, but it is only a story we have about life. It isn’t reality, though it seems very real.
Reality is that which is true, beautiful and good. It is the natural purity and radiance of our mind, when unclouded by appearances.
Fear clouds the mind.
False Evidence Appearing Real. FEAR
For many years I didn’t realize my world was the result of the way I saw it. I gave life the meaning it had.
What I tried to do was to make things right (the way I wanted them) rather than seeing them “right.”
I did not want darkness and the negativity. I only wanted to live in the light! Darkness and negativity frightened me. I shunned these states.
But they showed up anyway, for they were a necessary part of the process of soul development.
I learned that life has a lot of similarities to the way a photograph is developed. The negative of the photo is immersed in developing fluid in a dark room, and the picture which is on the negative gradually emerges.
So it is with life. I had to go into the darkness, the places that scared me, and immerse myself in the story, my picture of what has happened, to allow the whole photo to develop.
So I began going into these dark places, the negatives, my path of difficulties. As I intimately met each one I eventually discovered the joy.
But first I had to immerse myself in the darkness of “not knowing” and let the picture come forth by patiently waiting for it to develop.
It developed as I sat, listened, waited and simply breathed. This was not comfortable. I had only wanted the light!
But very gradually new pictures came forth and I began to see life differently.
My judgements and fears had clouded the issues. I now realize that everything came to bring me joy.
There is a developing fluid within each of us. It’s consists of intention woven together with time and patience, waiting in the stillness and quietly listening. It is also called devotion, love.
It takes a lot of letting go. Just being willing to let go and stop arguing about things, trying to prove the validity of “our story.”
Just let go, breathe and let the breath take you into the body. Your body senses guide you into something new and ever more beautiful.
Take heart! Joy lives in patience, and in learning to give our all to this holy work.
Since we have a seeming endless supply of difficult experiences there should be no lack of joy in our lives.
Jesus told his followers that “The harvest is plenty. The laborers are few.” Luke 10:2
We’ve got a crop of joy here that is waiting to be harvested. Let’s get in and do the work. It’s really a labor of love.
Let’s notice our resistance, the mind that pushes against things and tries to get rid of what it doesn’t want.
It takes effort to let go. We make the effort to pay attention to the breath watch it as it leaves. We ask ourselves, “What are we resisting?” “What are we afraid of?”
If we feel rotten, we need to let ourselves sit with these feelings, not try to get rid of them. They will change. Feelings flow when we experience them, for then we haven’t built a wall around them to block the flow.
A great truth to live by is this: We don’t have to act out our feelings, but we need to feel them intimately. Not standing outside them pointing at them and describing them, but experiencing them.
We may need to do this with a professional therapist to support us through this experience. Don’t wait; reach out for help.
How we see life, and how we relate to each feeling and experience determines whether we find the gifts—or just stay stuck in the struggle.
We must invite each difficulty in and sit with it. Talk, dialogue, find out just where it came from and what it needs.
Let the picture emerge from the darkness of not knowing—of letting go.
We will be told as we listen! Stop talking; just breathe and feel what is happening within our body. Be interested. Listen.
If the ideas that arise have “hot energy,” it’s advisable to wait before acting. Look closely and ask what your motive is for doing this. Be honest. Compulsive behavior cause future problems.
Honesty, empathy, compassion and patience will lead us into our joy.
Letting go, and letting go again and again.
The joy has been here all the time. It’s a gift. It’s the energy of love giving to you and right now loving you into a greater and greater sense of becoming.