We need to enter our fears, from the inside, get right into our emotions with our watchful Self, so that love and attention can transform them into something valuable. And there is such treasure within them.
As Joseph Campbell has said, “Follow your bliss. Your bliss will be found at the core of your suffering.”
Interesting how people have lopped off the last part and turned it into something narcissistic!
As Rumi has said, “Be suspicious of your wants.”
So each morning I do my best to pause and check my desires, wants and needs. I bring them to God, holding them up for inspection to my Higher Power. I sit in the silence with them and allow my inner spirit to guide me.
When I find “hot energy” in any of these desires I know it is a want, not a need. Hot energy has a pushiness, a quality of neediness, of desperation. This tells me it is of the ego—no matter how much I deny and think of all the good this will bring. Oh, how my ego loves to rationalize.
What matters most? What am I here for?
Once again I give myself to the purposes of my soul, and ask my ego to stand by, to quiet itself and allow God, my Real Self, to lead.
I pay for this with the currency of my time, my money, my meditation practice, my actions and with the commitment to listen ever more deeply to the still, small voice.