The world outside us offers no real security, as it’s always changing, forever impermanent and passing away.
Then where will we find refuge?
It is a fact of nature that everything physical, everything formed, will pass away. The things and people that we love simply will not always and forever be here for us in any physical way—much as we want them to!
There is refuge, indeed. I believe it is found in our mind and heart, as Jesus taught us in Luke 17:21. But it’s not what we already know or think we know! Even knowledge passes away. What we thought was wise and true yesterday will slip away from us. It rarely completely satisfies us today.
I have found refuge in the “don’t know mind.” And it is always here and available! We always have access to this mind—it’s within us and around us.
It is a true refuge as it relieves me from the stresses and strains of all the things I must do, and the worries about what I haven’t done. I realize I don’t really know how to run the world. I just don’t know!
Neither am I truly certain what needs to happen or what my flaws and shortcomings really are (or anyone else’s.) Or what my beauty, wisdom and folly are. I only see small slices of all that is.
But there is a whole universe happening right now filled with everything I don’t know—as well as the little I do know. It’s all here, filled with everything I could possibly need. All I need do is sink into this wide and deep universal mind. It knows and I don’t.
And the best thing is that I don’t need to. I can trust! This is my refuge where I am always safe.
All my worrying and trying to fix something or my list of “must do’s” drift out the window as I remember that I really don’t know what needs to be done, but something does—and I’m connected to it.
It flows through me as universal energy and will guide me into the future as it has been guiding all that is since the world began.
In Buddhism the “don’t know mind” is also known as beginner’s mind. For it is here that something new is born out of the emptiness of not knowing. It is the fertile void. It grows on its own and will not show up on demand.
This great Mind that is in continual harmonious flow always gives us what we need when the timing is right. My wanting to know is a form of impatience. Somehow I think I must know what and when. I’ll even give up the why if I can just have the what and when.
There it is again. The tug of desire—wanting, wanting, and wanting.
Yes, it is important to be intentional—to desire some particular thing to be done or accomplished. And then let it go. Give our desires to the universe and trust the right outcome will take place.
I remember Gandhi’s words, “Do the thing that needs to be done and give the outcome to God.” Simple wisdom, but so true.
I really don’t know how to make the plants and flowers rise up from the ground, or what the birds should be doing. I don’t know what the stars and planets should be doing, either. Don’t we all rely on something larger, deeper and greater that does know?
If this is true for the natural world it is also true for my life and those around me. We are all a part of nature. I can let go and trust that everyone will be taken care of by this great Isness that knows how to evolve.
I remember that this guiding, loving flow of energy has been evolving our planet for 14 and a half billion years. Universal energy knows how to become—I don’t!
As I remember this I feel as if I’m being held in the arms of loving energy. I can relax, breathe deeply and let go into this great Mind. I’m safe here.
It gives me a feeling of confidence. It feels rather heavenly—as if I and all beings are being taken care of compassionately and wisely. This is so much more than I, alone, could ever do.
Guidance gradually comes as I prepare a place to receive it—a place of stillness and emptiness. I wait and watch.
“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalms 46:10
Here is true refuge.
In love and trust,