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CONCEPT OR TRUTH?

7/28/2016

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There’s a wonderful story about a man walking along with the devil as another man approaches them, sees a paper on the ground, picks it up and excitedly puts it into his pocket.

The man walking with the devil inquires what that man found that was so valuable.

The devil responds, “The Truth.”

To which the man inquires, “Won’t that put you out of business?”

The devil smiles and says, “Oh, no. He’ll just turn it into a concept.”

We might chuckle at this and pass it off as a joke. But I ask you to consider how many concepts you have which are wonderful ideas, but don’t show up in your life.

The truth must be lived in every fiber of our mind and body.

We say, and claim to believe, concepts such as “God is good” or “God is love” but when things fall apart in our life, how do we respond? Do we stay on center, breathing our way calmly through the experience, understanding that it will all work out the way it needs to, the way that is best for all?

If not, that great idea is still just a concept.

Concepts are only thoughts, and thoughts don’t contain the energy to bring about change. They are ideas that don’t get out of the head, the realm of the intellect.

Our actions reveal what we believe. Or as an AA slogan says, “Turn down the sound and watch the action.”

Until a concept has been examined, struggled with, torn apart, and fully doubted, we won’t find the truth that empowers us to move gracefully through the grievous losses and disappointments of life.

We find the truth by standing in the difficult places, holding the tension between the despair of the loss and the possibility of what is to come.

We notice the very breath of spirit continues to breathe us.

As we stand here, we notice what our attitude is.

Are we worrying, feeling anxious and blaming people and circumstances for our suffering. These are old conditioned reactions, not the truth.

Blame and anxiety are simply attitudes, and each moment we can choose to shift our attention to the very breath that enlivens us. We can return moment by moment to this breath, just this one. It is sustaining us. We can give it our interest, experiencing it as it moves through the body.

We can’t live the next moment, or the next breath. They are concepts, not truth.

Take the concept of “patience is a virtue.” We may think we believe this, but how impatient do we find ourselves when things don’t go the way we want them to?
Underneath impatience we will find fear.

By meeting the fear, standing in the presence of whatever is at this moment, we find it changes. As we keep doing it, moment by moment, we develop patience which protects us from old, familiar, knee-jerk behaviors that have kept us stuck.

And new ideas emerge that guide us into wiser, more skillful action.

Old beliefs are dissolved by allowing the light of awareness to expose all the grimy and goolish roots as we patiently remain aware, not looking away, but learning from them.

Awareness is like a floodlight that shines directly into our thoughts, feelings and emotions, revealing their true nature. And it is often not a pretty sight! It takes courage to stay with them, watch and not try to change them, but let them dissolve on their own, for everything is impermanent.

Awareness shows us the deep places in our heart and mind, where core beliefs reside, below the superficial beliefs and opinions.

This may be unpleasant, for looking closely at the hurts, fears, sadness and the devastated places in our heart is not easy.

We often delay doing this because we think if we see all these tangled thoughts and emotions we will have to do something about them—fix them, or at least try. And we don’t know how.

The good news is that we don’t have to fix them. In fact trying to do will keep us tied to them.

“A problem can’t be solved at the level at which it was created,” as we have often heard. Yes, our best thinking got us here, and it won’t get us out.

When we stop trying to fix what we think is wrong, we find relief. We learn to let go, and patiently wait for a higher wisdom than our own to give us answers.

Our job is to shine the light of awareness by accepting and acknowledging what is.

It will change. Be patient.

Remember the story about the Chinese farmer? Whatever news was brought to him, either good or bad, he responded, “Ah so,” without getting upset or reacting to it. He truly understood everything was impermanent, and that things would all balance out.

His attitude of acceptance of things as they were kept him in a harmonious place where he became part of the solution, rather than the problem.

If we want to know the truth all we need do is give up our cherished opinions, our concepts, and launch into the deep places of the heart, trusting the very breath to sustain us and continued awareness of what is taking place in our mind.

In mindfulness,

Rev. Billie


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INTENTION CREATES REALITY

7/24/2016

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Intention is directional. Intention guides us in the direction we desire to go and is always in the present moment, not in some future time.
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Goals are future oriented. They describe a place we hope to arrive at in the future.

Our present choices reveal our true intentions. All we need do to discover our intention is to ask ourselves what is taking place right now in our mind. What is our attitude? And then listen to what flows through our mind.

What stories about problems and relationships are we rehashing over and over? What is our attitude toward them?

Our attention to them, without seeking to discover their root causes, just retelling the story, holds them in place.

Our intention is what we give our attention to.

Do we think we can figure things out by going over and over the same old stories, and ending up in the same quagmire?

To what are we attending this moment? Are we trying to protect and defend ourselves and our loved ones at all costs?

Or is our ambition, our yearning for success, status, or vindication driving our choices?

Skillful intention is the top of the list of the Buddha’s 8 fold path, the path that relieves suffering. For it creates our reality, our experience of life.

This isn’t to say it’s easy to remember our intention when the path becomes difficult and anxieties loom up pushing us to back down and face “reality” (which means obey the rules and the attitudes others taught us to live by).

Sometimes it seems easier to cling to these outmoded beliefs than to face the uncertainty of not knowing who we are or what will happen in the future.

Suffering occurs because the fundamental nature of reality is impermanent, which means we can’t be certain what will happen when whatever it is we are clinging to leaves us, be it our body, money, a loved one, houses, cars, etc, etc.

It’s only natural to have some anxiety and discomfort around the truth that everything that is formed, including ideas, passes away.

Yes, people and things will eventually leave us, or else we will leave them. And then we usually feel lost, abandoned or betrayed.
So, it boils down to this: How do we handle impermanence and uncertainty? What is our intention?

Are we going to continue trying to demand life be different, somehow more controllable—or accept what is?

There is always a greater beauty, a fuller dimension of life here and now, just the way things are, than we recognize or acknowledge.

When we die to the old we will be born to the new. But this takes a great risk of giving up all that we think we are. No small task.
As Dr. Jung has noted, “We all walk in shoes too small for us.”

Is our intention to serve that which is greater and more beautiful than anything the personal ego can comprehend? That which truly lasts? And will we make this our top priority?

Jesus gave us two powerful intentions:
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, soul and strength, and your neighbor as yourself.”    Mark 12:30,31

Someone has said if you want to be wealthy, you’ll spend your time making money. And if you want to be free, you’ll spend your time in mindfulness.

So, is it money and economic security that is more important—or our freedom from old beliefs that have imprisoned us?

This may sound similar to the famous question Jack Benny was asked by the thug demanding his money, “What’ll it be? Your money or your life?” To which Benny responded, “I’m thinking. I’m thinking!”

How much time does it take us to decide what matters most?
Spiritual practice can never be taken from us, but money and things, can flee at any moment under many diverse conditions. And we sure can’t take it with us. It’s obviously impermanent.

Success, achievement, popularity and a good reputation can also disappear in a flash. They have no stability, and therefore cannot sustain us.

For me, my basic intention is to “do no harm,” followed closely by the intention to notice suffering, for suffering hurts.

Therefore I question my attitude, moment by moment.

Am I wanting something to happen, or pushing something away? Am I hoping or wishing that the present moment be different from what it is? Am I grumpy, or feeling generous? Am I blaming outer conditions or people? Am I down on myself?

How hard am I pushing to get things done? Am I worrying? Do I feel anxious?

I have a habit of trying to hurry, trying to get as much done as possible. So, I notice how this feels. Hey, there’s some greed here. I’m trying to get. Rather than give. Which will lead to suffering. For the universe always gives, doesn’t try to get. This is the nature of love.

I intentionally stop, rest, and breathe, resetting my course to do no harm. Force hurts. I may get some things done, but where is the happiness? Where is a sense of freedom and joy?
As I explore further I discover beliefs that there is not enough time, energy, resources, etc., and that I must look good by being very efficient.

This is similar to being on automatic pilot. I react in old ways and there I am, stuck again.

I return to my intention to do no harm.

And the beauty is that I don’t have to figure out how to solve problems or change these habits. Just be willing to watch what flows through my mind and come back to my intention.

Universal wisdom does the rest. Attention will nourish whatever it thinks about.

As Jesus has said, “I, of myself can do nothing.”  John 5:30

He also said it is the Father that does the work.

It is the Presence of universal energy, the essence of truth, beauty and goodness that accomplishes our true desires.

The stuff of the universe knows how to evolve and grow. It’s been doing it for 14½ years. I think we can trust it.

In lovingkindness,

Rev. Billie

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THIS IS AS GOOD AS IT GETS

7/17/2016

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  “My problem is that I like life the way it isn’t.”  (Ziggy cartoon)

Does that speak to you? On some days it’s the way I feel.

Rather than wishing things were better and worrying about how to make them so, I am learning there is another way!

I remind myself as often as possible that this moment is really as good as it gets. And it doesn’t need to get any better.

Then I breathe deeply and consciously, feeling a letting go of my expectations of what I think should be happening.

The truth is that whatever is taking place at any moment is a result of seeds that have previously been planted in mind. And they have now come into maturity. The harvest is here. It’s natural.

Things are what they are, and they couldn’t be any other way. This is organic, natural growth.

As I relax, accepting what is here, I also am aware that change is already happening.

I can’t change what is. But I can plant new seeds.

What seeds am I planting?

Will I let go of whatever I’m clinging to, or avoiding? If so, I’m already in the process of relieving suffering and vexation.

Resisting what is will only increase the suffering, for by doing so we are planting more unpleasant seeds that will mature in some future time. And do we want that future?

It is only by accepting what is that we can go forward in a way that brings happiness.

This is our choice!

To wish it to be better than it is, or more of this and less of that, is like planting carrot seeds and being upset that we don’t harvest a tomato, or an orange.

We planted carrots and that’s what grows.

I have often laughed at a scene in the movie As Good As It Gets where Jack Nicholson’s character is being thrown out of his psychiatrist’s office. He stopped, looked at everyone in the waiting room and asked, “Have you ever thought that this might be as good as it gets?”

Both humorous and worth contemplating.

We can continue to be plagued by wanting things to be better, or we can understand that this is what is for now, and it will change.

Whatever has been planted and nurtured in the great mind of the universe will bear fruit.

If we plant thoughts and feelings of anger, blame, resentment, remorse that’s what will grow.

Look at our thoughts right now. Is there disappointment, resentment or envy?

Is this what we are going to nurture by wishing things were better?

Of will we use this moment to notice what we have planted, and make new choices?

Here is where gratitude comes in. Are we willing to plant some gratefulness? It’s good to sprinkle these seeds everywhere!

There is always something to be grateful for. Always. Look around!

Are you still breathing? Do you have clean water, air? Can you decide what thoughts you will engage? Can you make choices about what takes place in your mind? Then you have a lot to be grateful for. Don’t underestimate it.

A practice of gratitude can make the shift from wishing things were better to enjoying what is and discovering that it really is enough. Over and again I have found the truth in this. It is amazing!

Gratitude is an act of generosity. When we feel grateful we are opening our heart and offering thanks to the universe.

Jesus said, “I have come that they might have life and have it more abundantly.” John 10:10.

As we reflect on how Jesus lived do you suppose he meant that we should have more things? Or that we should spend time acquiring? Or trying to get others to do what we want?

Or did Jesus deal with the life that presented itself by connecting ever more closely with what he called “the Father” with the understanding that this was always enough?

This Presence brought him everything he needed. He remained grateful that there was no separation, and he received the energy needed for every moment.

This sounds like abundance to me. It fills my spirit just to think about it!

Jesus instructed his disciples not to predict some future harvest, when things will be better. Instead he said, “I tell you it (the harvest) is already here. Life up your eyes and look at the fields; for they are white already unto harvest.” John 4:35   (Italics mine)

I believe the fields represent the great mind we live in. Whatever is planted in mind is already here. We need only wait in assurance, in confidence, knowing that it will show up at just the right time—when it has been properly nurtured, attended to.

“First the blade, then the ear, then the full grain in the ear.” Mark 4:28

Yes, this is the way it is. It’s natural and organic.

Be patient. The old is dying. It’s on its way out. And the new is arriving.

And this is the way things are for now. It’s as good as it gets.

In mindfulness,

Rev. Billie 
 

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THE POTENTIAL OF THE SMALL

7/7/2016

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“You can’t do great things, but you can do little things with great love.”  Mother Teresa

Yes, there is great power within the small act, thought, word or gesture.
How can we give our greatest love to whatever we are doing right now—no matter how insignificant what we are doing seems?

Love is attention. When we say we love someone, but give them very little attention, we are fooling ourselves.

When we reflect the times others assured us of their love, but gave us very little attention, we know it was just lip service. We were down the list of important activities in their lives.

Attending to the needs of those we love to the best of our ability is important. Whether we can fill those needs isn’t so important, but doing what we can to let them know we care is the currency of love.

Just being with someone, sharing our presence with them whether we have answers for them or not, is true love.

Another form of love is to pay attention to what is occurring within and around us, so I do my best to remember to notice whether my mind is filled with thoughts or feelings that are wholesome or unwholesome.

Am I adding to the unhappiness of our world, or am I wishing everyone the best, whether I agree or disagree with their words and actions?

Am I willing to disagree with someone without throwing them out of my heart?

This may seem small, but words carry a large impact. Attending to the words and thoughts we have about others impacts the consciousness of the world.

By paying close attention to my mind state—my thoughts and my feelings—I do less damage. At the same time I develop patience and awareness.

There is an ancient Chinese proverb referring to “the taming power of the small.” It is the small that tames the large, not the other way round.

Telling myself the truth about what I am feeling and looking into my motive for my words and actions may seem small, but it helps me to avoid projecting onto others.

Am I striving to look more important, perhaps wanting some form of status, or have someone’s approval?

Am I hoping for popularity, outer success, or am I choosing to follow an inner alignment with my soul?

What is my intention? And what am I willing to do to follow my intention? It requires paying attention. Attention hold intention in place.

Therefore, looking closely and asking whether we are adding to or trying to hurt the well being of anyone is of great consequence.

What we refuse to notice, we will fail to correct.

Everything is energy, including our thoughts and emotions.

A small change here, within our own mind, changes everything.

Science has proved that we are all interconnected in such subtle ways that the physical senses cannot conceive of how much every iota of energy—of thoughts, feelings, and actions—affect everyone and everything.

When we touch something right in front of us, we actually touch the farthest star.

Our choices are creative.

When we understand that nothing in nature (and we are a part of nature) travels in straight lines, for we live in a curved universe as science has shown, we realize that course correction is constantly needed if one is going to arrive where one had intended to go.

Every path curves, and if we continue doing the same thing, following our habitual patterns, we will veer right off the course we have set.

New choices, made moment by moment, are necessary if we are to follow our original intention.

This requires pausing, breathing deeply and reflecting into our motives.

Is there a perception of a threat of some kind? A loss?  A possible failure? And if so, what thoughts and feelings are connected to this?

Above all, question the truth of these thoughts. Can we prove they are true?

When we consider that the basis of all physical matter is the principle of uncertainty, perhaps we need to let our opinions and beliefs out of the box of certainty, for nothing can remain fixed.

It is rewarding to ask what it is that wants to unfold in this moment.

What is the highest thing to do or say, or not do, or not say?

These small choices tame ego centeredness, narcissism and violence.
As Gandhi has said, “What you do may seem insignificant, but it is vital that you do it.”

We have such largeness within each of us. There is no end to our creativity and ingenuity. Our potential is unlimited as we follow our authentic nature.

Each small prayer of gratitude, forgiveness, of wishing the other person well, does its work to tame the seemingly more powerful forces of fear, hurt and aggression.

How can small thoughts and actions be so transformative? Just cause we’re all totally interconnected.

And that’s the way it is!

In mindfulness,

Rev. Billie


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MATTERS OF CONSEQUENCE

7/1/2016

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Have you found yourself tending to matters that seem consequential, even urgent, but then something more important occurs and you realize your values were misplaced?

Often we only become aware of what really matters when we are severely challenged, perhaps faced with a great loss— a broken relationship, an accident, illness, death or divorce.

Those things which had previously been so vital suddenly lose their significance.

Or perhaps one day we just wake up feeling empty, wondering if we missed the boat somewhere along the line.

During these times we may doubt our purpose for living and ask ourselves what we have been doing all these years that seemed so important.

In any case discovering what has true value for us is vital for a fulfilling life.

Many years ago I read a story from The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery which has helped me prioritize my values.

The theme of the book is about a very curious boy, The Little Prince, who visits many strange planets to see what might exist in this vast universe.

On one visit he came upon a businessman who was very busy counting (he was up in the millions) and could not be interrupted with the Little Prince’s questions that seemed utterly irrelevant.

He told the Little Prince that he was busy with matters of consequence and mustn’t lose count.

Still the Little Prince persisted in inquiring into what it is that he is counting. The businessman again told him he was too busy couldn’t be bothered with idle questions and foolishness.

Eventually the businessman sees the only way to get rid of this annoying little boy is to answer him.

With exasperation he explains that he is counting those little golden objects seen in the sky that set lazy men to idle dreaming. Therefore he has no time to contemplate what they might be, nor for idle chatter.

No, he must tally them up, for these are matters of consequence!

I resonated with this story because counting was something I could do. It held no mystery. It’s rational—gives simple answers rather than cause more questions. Not like human beings!

How much easier it is to do something I felt confident about, rather than ask what might be more important than my agenda.

I reflected upon the years the children were small and I stayed so busy keeping the house immaculate, meals on the table and generally trying to keep everything in control.

I had no time to stop and appreciate the preciousness of these little people, how they were growing and unfolding day by day, or to listen deeply to their questions.

How many beautiful moments I missed because I thought my business was making sure the children were well fed, cared for and the house clean.

I had no time to stop and enjoy the wonder on a child’s face, their sweet questioning, including the absolute innocence of a child dangling the electric razor (unplugged) by its cord into the toilet to see what might happen. The inquiring mind at its best!

I was too busy trying to teach these little children my ideas of right from wrong and what was appropriate in the world.
I mistakenly felt this was what really mattered.

Thus I often missed the unique, never to be repeated moments of those amazing beings around me. I missed showing them how much I loved them!

Habits repeat themselves, so now I look around and ask, “What matters of consequence am I so preoccupied with that are keeping me from the preciousness of this moment.”

Am I too busy to look deeply into a flower, consider how it got there and what mystery conspired to birth this beauty?
How does a tiny, seemingly insignificant seed become something so spectacular?

How do things transform?

What is the true value of this breath that is breathing me? And what answers might lie in simply quieting the mind and allowing the breath to flow through me, and learn from it?

What else is going on right now that I cannot comprehend? What is wanting to be born? And how might I cooperate with this process?

This moment I can choose how to be with, pay attention to, what is happening right now—my worries, my angst, my trust or lack of it, my yearnings and my intentions, to name a few. Everything flowing through my body and mind is significant in ways I need to discover.

There is an underlying motivation to every thought and feeling that may be misguided. I need to find out what my deeper intention is.

How I choose to meet this present moment will either cause more suffering, or relieve it. These are matters of consequence.

And maybe every interruption is the universe waking me up to what needs to be done, rather than my agenda.

In lovingkindness,

Rev. Billie


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