Elijah had previously killed 400 of the prophets of Baal, sure he was doing that which was necessary to get Israel back on its rightful course. He desperately wanted to show Israel who the true God was, and it certainly was not Jezebel’s gods.
I Kings 18: 20-40.
Fearing for his life Elijah raced across the desert, hid in a cave and prayed. But he found no answer in the wind, or the earthquake, or the fire. So he continued to pray and to wait.
I have the feeling there was some powerful confession going on in that cave. In reflection Elijah may have realized his zeal for righteousness took him too far, although this is not in the story as it is presented. But something changed within Elijah as he sat there, wondering, waiting, and praying.
We are told that after all the thunder and lightning, he heard a still, small voice and it was this voice that saved him.
I believe this occurred because he had fully surrendered to God by being willing to face whatever he had sown.
His harvest had arrived, and his life was up for grabs. He stopped running and waited. But he wasn’t alone. He knew this inner presence of God, and he sought guidance.
Like Elijah, there comes a time when our best solutions have become our problems. Oftentimes we also run, hide, pray, and hope it will all go away.
But actions have been sown and what we have done now faces us. We may not like it, but it’s to be dealt with. Consequences are here.
The answer: stop running, and wait on God, knowing as we turn and humbly face whatever karma we have sown, we will experience grace. The still small voice always saves us!
This is a wonderful time to dialogue with God in our journals. To listen. To talk with God. And pray some more.
A statement that truly helps me is:
“This is the way it is for me, for now.”
Here is where I am. And here is where God is.
The way out is in and through.
To err is human.
To admit it, is divine.
And to listen, listen, listen is sublime!
No matter how long it takes. We all make mistakes. Yet grace is always here for us as we surrender to God and humbly ask for help.