I am gradually learning to slow down and allow myself to feel the effect of each thought, emotion and physical sensation, without making up stories about them—or acting them out.
Instead I breathe, inquire as to what is taking place within me and around me, and then, without all the usual interpretations about what it all means, listen in the silence for guidance as to the next step.
I have no idea if this step is the right one or not, but it seems to be the thing to do, and I can change course as I go.
This path has gradually led me to where I am right now. And life continues to unfold.
I am aware that my mind has taken me to right where I am now. This is where I find myself, right here, and by following the clues and experiencing each step of this journey, I am led forward. Amazing how this works!
I have studied many paths and explored numerous ideas. What I now see and feel in my bones is that Mind is the beginning of everything. It is the Source, and here within, is where I must go for help.
I am speaking of the great radiant Mind of universal energy that has evolved everything to the present moment, and is continually leading us into the future. It knows how!
14 billion years of evolution is a proven track record of bringing us into the now, and leading us into the next step moment by moment. This is trustable!
Regardless of how we assess the condition of the world, evolution is taking place, and it continues to spiral upwards.
Universal energy, the Essence of all that is, may move slowly, but it is tenacious and always finds a way forward.
There is something within all beingness that knows the way.
One of my favorite authors, Robert A. Johnson, describes this process as discovering a slender thread, that when followed, leads us into our next step of our journey—which then leads into the next and the next.
This path calls us into the unknown, into the very clenches of what we fear.
It seems to be only when things are darkest and most hopeless that we become willing to admit we don’t know the way, and that we need help.
At this point we can surrender into the experience, knowing we can’t control it, but must succumb to whatever happens.
This is when we find our allies. Help arrives—usually from some surprising quarter that we never dreamed would show up.
I have been blown away by finding that I’m not lost, but have been found by someone or something that holds just the answer I need.
I can trust this process.
I use my journal as my sounding board, letting my thoughts and fears pour out on its pages. I experience deeply what is happening in my mind, and how my heart feels. I allow myself to feel the physical sensations in my body, all of them. None is given preference.
I take the time to do this because I have discovered how effectively it leads me where I need to go.
Through this process I go down the dead end streets of habit less frequently, and begin to trust that there is something within that knows the way.
And it’s a lot more fun!
I remember that everything is impermanent, including this body I am living in. I recall basic physics. Everything that is born will die.
There is a time to say “hello” and a time to say “good-by.
It’s so much easier to let go when I’m not hanging on so tightly to what I want, or trying to push away what I don’t like, and fear.
When I willingly let go, I find an inner guidance that takes my soul where it needs to go next.
One step leads to another, and I begin to enjoy the ride!
I simply need to follow this slender thread, trusting the grace of this evolutionary journey.
It takes only a willingness to practice in the small moments of fear and anxiety. Then it takes remembering to come back to the practice of mindfulness. Let this breath be enough—for it is.
When I practice in these small moments, I am able to make it through the larger moments, and out the other side.
Something within knows the way.